a very long day.
but it felt like I didn’t have much time with the fam. i’m still trying to figure this out and work through the mommy guilt. so i know that i have a pretty decent gig when it comes to hours and flexibility but it still feels so hard. I like working and i like being at home with the kids. so take today, woke up, made lunches, kids off to school by 9:00, work by 10:00, off at 6:00, meet family for dinner at pf changs for dinner, then Target run with K home at 830pm. Kids in bed. so at the end of the day i feel like i had no time with them really.
Now I have read many books on mothers in the workforce trying to balance work and family and I know that at the end of this all the kids will be fine. BUT it’s still so hard not feeling guilty. It’s been almost a year that I’ve been at this job and I love it and it is getting easier…I guess the longer I do this the easier it will keep getting.
Then I look at the mommies that work at home by being home with kids and I think that is so hard too! I did it for a while and that was really hard. Now I sound really crazy.
Well that’s that. Tomorrow will be a better day.
